Cast thy first stone

Back at work again. Been busy though with a new case that came in today morning.

Came in today morning and found out that my leave has been declined due to too many staff requesting for leave on those dates. Sigh..there goes my holidays and my pre-paid flight tickets.

Well, nothing I can do about it now. So I now have a remainder of 5.2 days of leave left. Yes, 0.2! Which is an equivalent of 2 hours 40 minutes. I’m going to have to use that to go home early one of these days. The boyfriend has 5.5 days left. The issue is planning anything because he doesn’t know when he’ll be able to take it.

Sigh.

Updates.

Sue-ann and I finally met up over lunch at Dome. It was really nice to catch up. It’s been so long and I’ve missed her. She said I’ve changed. I’m standing up for myself more apparently. I agree, of course. The boyfriend keeps reminding me that I need to be assertive and I do believe I have been recently.

Which reminds me, the boyfriend and I are looking to invest in a property. We just went to bank yesterday and sat down, blanked face as we listen to this lady drone on about home loans. I honestly did not know what was going on. I can’t blame myself because this is all fairly new to me. We looked at the monthly repayment and I was doing calculations in my head. I’m paying for my car, bills and soon a house and now another house. I don’t like being a grown up. =(

It feels as if someone just took a knife and slashed through my pocket!

Btw, the ash cloud seems to be back. A few of the airports in the UK are closed. Please don’t loom over the airports when I’m working. Pick someone else.

It makes you think that with everything that has been happening around the world that the Apocalypse is already in motion.

I take these verses from the Bible to let you know what I mean;

The Book of Revelations 6

2And I saw, and behold a white horse: and he that sat on him had a bow; and a crown was given unto him: and he went forth conquering, and to conquer.
4And there went out another horse that was red: and power was given to him that sat thereon to take peace from the earth, and that they should kill one another: and there was given unto him a great sword.

6And I heard a voice in the midst of the four beasts say, A measure of wheat for a penny, and three measures of barley for a penny; and see thou hurt not the oil and the wine.

8And I looked, and behold a pale horse: and his name that sat on him was Death, and Hell followed with him. And power was given unto them over the fourth part of the earth, to kill with sword, and with hunger, and with death, and with the beasts of the earth.
12And I beheld when he had opened the sixth seal, and, lo, there was a great earthquake; and the sun became black as sackcloth of hair, and the moon became as blood;

13And the stars of heaven fell unto the earth, even as a fig tree casteth her untimely figs, when she is shaken of a mighty wind.
14And the heaven departed as a scroll when it is rolled together; and every mountain and island were moved out of their places.
15And the kings of the earth, and the great men, and the rich men, and the chief captains, and the mighty men, and every bondman, and every free man, hid themselves in the dens and in the rocks of the mountains;
16And said to the mountains and rocks, Fall on us, and hide us from the face of him that sitteth on the throne, and from the wrath of the Lamb:
17For the great day of his wrath is come; and who shall be able to stand?
Revelation 7
1And after these things I saw four angels standing on the four corners of the earth, holding the four winds of the earth, that the wind should not blow on the earth, nor on the sea, nor on any tree.
2And I saw another angel ascending from the east, having the seal of the living God: and he cried with a loud voice to the four angels, to whom it was given to hurt the earth and the sea,
3Saying, Hurt not the earth, neither the sea, nor the trees, till we have sealed the servants of our God in their foreheads.
Revelation 8

5And the angel took the censer, and filled it with fire of the altar, and cast it into the earth: and there were voices, and thunderings, and lightnings, and an earthquake.
6And the seven angels which had the seven trumpets prepared themselves to sound.
7The first angel sounded, and there followed hail and fire mingled with blood, and they were cast upon the earth: and the third part of trees was burnt up, and all green grass was burnt up.
8And the second angel sounded, and as it were a great mountain burning with fire was cast into the sea: and the third part of the sea became blood;
9And the third part of the creatures which were in the sea, and had life, died; and the third part of the ships were destroyed.
10And the third angel sounded, and there fell a great star from heaven, burning as it were a lamp, and it fell upon the third part of the rivers, and upon the fountains of waters;
11And the name of the star is called Wormwood: and the third part of the waters became wormwood; and many men died of the waters, because they were made bitter.
12And the fourth angel sounded, and the third part of the sun was smitten, and the third part of the moon, and the third part of the stars; so as the third part of them was darkened, and the day shone not for a third part of it, and the night likewise.
13And I beheld, and heard an angel flying through the midst of heaven, saying with a loud voice, Woe, woe, woe, to the inhabiters of the earth by reason of the other voices of the trumpet of the three angels, which are yet to sound!

When ever I read Revelations, it sends shivers down my spine. I have always been a person with faith and I believe. However, recently, I was rejected because I am believed to live in sin. Why? Because I am living with a man who is not my husband. I have never been so hurt in my life before. What more do I have if the faith I have believed in rejects me? I never told the boyfriend about this. In fact, I have not told anyone, until now.

Even so, I still have faith and I still believe. If He rejects me, I will not think that I’ve wasted my whole life praising Him. He has given many blessings and one of which who loves me more than life itself. I could not ask for more.

If I’m damned, then so be it. I will still stand by my faith in God.